Another shot from the 365 self portraits.
Although this is shot in a slightly light-hearted way it was a serious subject.
I have mentioned before the role that alcohol played in my illness. At the worst I wasn’t sleeping at all. On top of that the emotional pain was unbearable. Alcohol became an occasional way to not only achieve something like sleep, but to get to a state where the pain was numbed to a degree. Eventually I would drink a whole bottle of vodka purely to achieve the effect.
Obviously I kept some standards. The vodka was always chilled!