Thank You Florence!

People who know me well will know that I think Florence Welch, of Florence and the Machine fame, is pretty special. One of those rare talents that comes along far too infrequently in the modern music industry. The fact that she looks pretty good is just a bonus.

She is one of the artists that, during my over-emotional past week or so, I’ve avoided listening too for fear of opening the emotional floodgates too rapidly. Last night I felt strong enough to listen to Ceremonials again. As expected it was very cathartic but in a way that I’m now able to handle. As is the way with people with real talent and that ability to convey ideas and emotions through words and music, she says things far better than I ever could.

The whole album speaks to me in different ways. It also speaks for me. The track that stood out for me yesterday emotionally was Shake It Out. I’ll copy and paste the lyrics below. It’s talk of regrets obviously taps in to where I have been this last week but also shaking off the devil on your back. Some of the devils on my back will always be there to some degree. The ones that relate to the incidents that caused my PTSD. The other devil on my back that I have been blogging about more recently I have gone a long, long way to shaking off this past week or so.

I then remembered that this song has a pretty cool video to it as well. (I am conscious that I have potentially annoyed my daughter by using the word cool. Apparently “old” people shouldn’t say it.)So I watched the video and that tapped heavily into the last week as well. I’ll also link the video below. In some parts of the video Florence reminds me a bit of when I first met a recently departed friend. The one I said in a previous post had given me a big telling off. On that first meeting she also delivered quite a strong reprimand so that was a bit of a circle closed. One that I’d love not to have been closed. After that first telling off we did make up. I quite strongly remember one occasion she said to me “You think your mask is firmly in place don’t you but I can see straight through it. One day you’ll have to take it off.” She was right, even if it did take a long time. The thing about masks obviously fits in with the video. As a bit of an aside. Some of the dancing in the video is apparently how I dance at weddings etc. Funnily enough my long ago ex and I spoke about that last week.

The whole of the Ceremonials album rings emotional bells for me. The bits about water and drowning particularly at the moment. Primarily that strikes a chord with the times when I was very ill and I sat by the river very seriously considering just walking into it.There was one time whilst sitting by the river I’d picked the scabs off some recent deep cuts which bled quite heavily. I got as far as walking part way into the water and still have a strong visual memory of my blood swirling in the water. These water and drowning pieces also remind me of a couple of friends and indirectly of the friend I just spoke about.

So, in conclusion welcome back Florence and being able to tap into my emotions musically. Onto some slightly more difficult older stuff now!

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues strong
It’s always darkest before the dawn

And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I’m always dragging that horse around

And our love is pastured such a mournful sound
Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues strong
But it’s always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues strong
It’s always darkest before the dawn
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It’s a fine romance but it’s left me so undone
It’s always darkest before the dawn

Oh woah, oh woah…

And I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t
So here’s to drinks in the dark at the end of my rope
And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope
It’s a shot in the dark and right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I’m gonna let it happen to me

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

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