This one represents a few things.
When I was younger I used to frequently carry out pointless acts of bravado. This is a scaled down representation of that. The whole thing was part of the mask of course. Or part of a multi layered mask. Very much diversionary behaviour but also an attempt to be a bit jack-the-lad.
But it also represents a tendency to carry on even when things get a bit uncomfortable. I have frequently described it in the past as a bloody-minded streak but it is actually more than that I think. I suppose this relates on a work level, where we frequently put ourselves in uncomfortable positions that we may instinctively want to pull away from. Possibly doing that led to my PTSD. In direct relationship to this picture I have, of course, got various burns at work in the past. On two occasions needing hospital treatment for them.
But the overall motivation for this particular picture was mostly to do with getting better from my illness. In the end, to beat the PTSD in particular, I had to face it head on. I had to hold my hand over that candle and let the pain come and do its worst. In words from a previous post I had to allow it to be. It was hard, it was uncomfortable, it was painful. But I am certain it is one of the reasons I am in recovery.